Hiding behind the veil of happiness
Everyday brings new scars
Opens old wounds

What do you see when you look at me?
Do you know the pain I feel inside
The utter loss and loneliness

I laugh and smile with you
While my mind scrambles for answers
I think of ways to fix the problems

Do you know that I cry in my room
When I know that I can't fix this
When it seems like it never ends

Do you know that I beat myself up
Looking for a way out of this
When I can see no end

I keep trying
I keep moving
Day by day
I keep striving

My veil is breaking
I'm breaking
My scars unable to heal
My wounds pulsing
With the life I wish to have
By the life I'll never have

My eyes sting
Wanting to cry
Unable to cry

My chest clenches
I can hardly breathe
I need to breathe

My soul dies
As I lose it all

I close my eyes
To get away from it all
But it's there in my mind

I'm fighting all the time
My invisible enemy
Is there beside me

My invisible enemy
Is me

To close my eyes and dream
Is my only escape from the world
Far beneath the the forest canopy
I will find my bearing

To close my eyes and dream
To find a way to deal
In the furthest corners of my mind
I will find my sanity

To close my eyes and dream
The world on my shoulders
Drifting in the deepest ocean
I will find the answers

To close my eyes and dream
To pass into rem
The one place I feel comfortable
I will find my rest

First post just to break it in. I'll be posting when I get home with some poetry or stories, or whatever floats my boat.